valleys low...

so this is the end of a rather difficult week. with the news that i just received from the florida bar, i don't know what is going to happen. i have less than a week to come up with $3000. i am praying and having faith in God that all will work out for my good. as i was praying a couple of nights ago, i have so much to thank Him for already that even if He doesn't work this out the way that i might want Him to, i will still praise Him because praise is what i do.

also, i spent a little time with "certain someone" yesterday. nothing happened (thank God), but it made me realize that i cannot spend any time with him at all. i saw a pic of him with his siblings and i didn't recognize him at first. he looked AMAZING. not that he doesn't look amazing now, but back then he was all muscle bound and in shape. i thought about that pic all day. i dreamt about that pic all night. so i woke up and prayed that God would remove any feelings and desires that i might have for him because i cannot keep going there with him.

on the bright side, i am wearing a pair of jeans that i bought a year and a half ago, but could NEVER fit into...they look good on me too. a half an inch of each thigh would make them look better (that and if i took the pants in at the waist a little bit, maybe an inch).

valleys low...i'm going to trust in Him, though...this is the "year of manifest" and God will make a way for me to overcome these situations...even if i have to go through them.