depressed woman LIVE in concert...one day only!!
author's note: since she was really insistent, i decided to let depressed woman come back and make one last appearance. what you are about to read is her views and opinions and do not necessarily reflect those of the author of this blog (or the other contributing "perspectives").
today is one of those days when i completely hate my life. i see absolutely no good in it. and although i know for a fact that is not true, that is the feeling i am left with. nothing good can come of me. and all of my efforts are in vain. i am terrible at my job. i cannot find a decent man and i'm broke. i have no friends in the vicinity, so i spend most of my days pretending to be someone i'm not because the people who know who i am (who know me best) are hundreds of miles away or, if close in proximity, are toxic and i should not allow them to be a part of my life.
and i know that i have family that cares about me. i do know that. but because they "have" to care about me, their love is sometimes (unfortunately) easily dismissed.
i'm not going to cry, though. i'm just going to allow myself to have this bad day and pray that i will have a good one in the near future.
p.s. i miss you, "certain someone."
today is one of those days when i completely hate my life. i see absolutely no good in it. and although i know for a fact that is not true, that is the feeling i am left with. nothing good can come of me. and all of my efforts are in vain. i am terrible at my job. i cannot find a decent man and i'm broke. i have no friends in the vicinity, so i spend most of my days pretending to be someone i'm not because the people who know who i am (who know me best) are hundreds of miles away or, if close in proximity, are toxic and i should not allow them to be a part of my life.
and i know that i have family that cares about me. i do know that. but because they "have" to care about me, their love is sometimes (unfortunately) easily dismissed.
i'm not going to cry, though. i'm just going to allow myself to have this bad day and pray that i will have a good one in the near future.
p.s. i miss you, "certain someone."
posted by Haydn Rhys | 10:16 AM
2 Comments:
I knew that she wouldn't be gone for long. And guess what? She'll make yet another appearance. You just wait and see. Life does that to you. As soon as you swear something off, that's when the urges come. But it's all good...it's healing for the soul really. Be thoughtful, learn much, and proceed to live by grace.
you are insane. i believe i woke up my neighbors with my hysterical laughter when i read the title of this post (which serves them right for having loud sex earlier tonight...when i can hear it in my bedroom, it's one thing; when i can hear it in my living room, they're just showing off).
anyway, it's NOT funny, and i totally understand how you--er, depressed woman--feels, and just a couple days ago she and goth chick performed a powerful duet. thank god there were no straight razors around...it could have gotten ugly.
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