just inside the threshold

when i was a kid, i romanticized adulthood, like most kids do. i thought that money was something that you were just issued like a stipend on a weekly basis and that work was some place they kept the grownups while the kids were in school. i thought that marriage was something that automatically happened when you reached a certain age and that kids automatically came right after. i thought all adults had life easy because they were autonomous and lazy (which meant we kids did all the grunt work).

now that i am standing just inside the threshold of adulthood, i realise how wrong i was. money is not handed out like a stipend. not really. you have to work hard for it. and there are a million haters that try to keep money and me apart. bills, student loans, old cars with windows that roll down only sometimes and never at your command...GAS!!!

i realise that work is something you have to truly enjoy or else every day of your life will begin with the overwhelming feeling of impending torture. there's almost nothing worse than HATING your job.

marriage (as you can see from previous posts) is NOT automatic. quick story: i called my dad with some good news yesterday. i told him to guess what it was. and he said, with an audible smile, "haydn rhys is getting married." and i thought, wow! he hasn't even heard me mention anyone (i do NOT talk about certain someone). how did he get there? so i asked why he went immediately to marriage. and he responded, quite innocently, "well you told me to take a guess." so i just shook my head and said, "well, at least now i know what you pray for every morning!"

anyways, as much as i've heard people say this, i never realised how true it really is: i wish i knew then what i know now. i would have learned to ride a bike, i would have enjoyed the playground more, i would have milked my financial dependency for all it was worth. i would have better prepared myself for what awaited me just inside the threshold.